Fall in Love, Again

fall in love again As a writer, it’s really easy to fall into a pit of angst and despair. It’s kinda required – we spend a lot of time beating up on ourselves because there are always ways to improve. We tell ourselves:

  • That entire scene made me cringe. The whole time. The whooooole time.
  • Why is this character here? Are they necessary? Are any of these characters necessary? What is the meaning of life?
  • Oh, look, another crappy line of dialogue.
  • Snoooore feeeeest. Need to amp up this action by, like, 100.
  • ???
  • PROFIT!!!

It can get tiring. But, like I said, it’s vital that we know our flaws so we can lessen them.

It’s become a sadistic trend that I despise all my rough drafts. They’re terrible. It gets really bad around that Camp NaNo and NaNoWriMo times because – let’s face it – fast drafting has never produced anything publish-ready.

I can’t count how many times I’ve finished a manuscript, blinked at it for a while and promptly wanted to flip my desk because it sucked so much.

However, after I’ve spent some time away, when I come back to re-read or revise, I usually realize it’s not so bad. Surely, it’s ugly, but it’s not irredeemable. In fact, practically without fail, I fall in love with my own writing all over again.

I can still see its flaws, but I can also see through them – to how I can fix them.

I’m going through this right now with my 11,000th revision of In Silence and Energy: Book Three in the Soul series. It’s a long way from finished, but I get a little closer each day.

And I fall in love all over again with every step I take.

What are you currently working on? :D

S. R. Carrillo


13 comments on “Fall in Love, Again

  1. This is all too relatable, haha. The way I see it though, finding flaws in our own work just shows that we care and are still passionate about improving :)

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  2. Dominika says:

    “Snoooore feeeeest. Need to amp up this action by, like, 100.” Haha, how did you find my notes??? Seriously, lol. I’m currently working on a fantasy novel and there are so many notes that relate to this post. I go back and forth between loving and despising my work though. It’s a process. I agree with Callum hat being able to see/feel those flaws suggests we care and are passionate about improving our craft.

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  3. Accio Books says:

    I know exactly what you mean. I took a step back from the novel I was working on (wish I would have had a finished draft, but oh well) Ocureum and I’m rereading it to get back into the world and I see a ton of wonderful qualities, but I see the flaws, but the way to fix them is as clear as day.

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  4. Rachel says:

    This is all true. I’m still working on the first book in my mystery series and I can’t tell you how many times I’ve changed it.

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  5. A serial based dark fantasy, which I intend to release in episodes starting next month. I fell in love with the characters, so although I feel every one of the emotions/stages you describe, it’s (mostly) worth it! :-)

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