Lemme just say: Sometimes, I think I’m kinda dumb.
I wasn’t always, and no one else seems to think so, but I feel like I could be so much smarter than I am if I’d’ve just stayed in school instead lettin’ it fall to the wayside.
Now, in the Army, there are certain qualifications that have to be met, but if you do meet ’em, you can garner Tuition Assistance that, at a fundamental level, essentially pays for anything up to a Bachelor’s degree in college.
The whole reason I joined the Army instead of goin’ to college when I was 17 was because the Army said, “You can go to school and be Army at the same time.” It’s exactly what I wanted to do – what I knew I would do since I was 6 years old.
I’ve been fairly paralyzed at the thought of takin’ college courses ever since then, though.
It’s been 4 years – most of my high school friends have graduated college already and have been successful.
Meanwhile, here I am, thumb-twiddlin’, no closer to a degree than the day I took my oath.
Well, that’s gonna change. I sat in on a brief last week with about 50 other people where a Command Sergeant Major stood up and told us all, “No time will ever be the right time.”
He may as well have been talkin’ to me – I have done nothin’ but wait for a good, calm period of time to settle in and start my schoolin’, but it’s never shown its face.
So, fuck it.
I’m already enrolled in Central Texas College and have CLEPed out of a course (from a few months back when I decided to get off my ass before I got paralyzed and relapsed into my toxic inaction again), but I can’t stop there!
So, here’s to continuing my education.
Pray for me.
I’ll need it.